I spent the majority of my childhood scared of the idea that one day, I could have the life that I wanted to have. I felt like I was weak, and the abuse that I suffered didn't help. Nothing made sense to me, and I felt like I would forever live up to the expectations that were bestowed upon me by my environment. I grew up in a horrible part of Indianapolis and saw drugs, murder, and crime take away people's livelihoods and abilities to seek something more significant. I saw those same things rip my family apart. The truth is that I too was a part of the problem. I started selling drugs, breaking into houses, hurting people, and worst of all, pushed my family and friends away by the time I was twelve. I thought it was self-preservation, but in actuality, I was just a scared little boy who needed protection, to be told it was going to be OK, and a hug.
I found myself deep into a mushroom trip in Vietnam when I had the most important revelation of my life.
Watch the video to find out what it was.
